Songs that have spent some serious time on repeat:

Nobody

July 2025, I think.  Hating how hard it is to interact socially.

Automatic

July 2025.  Having something of a breakdown, when I'd reached clarity on some things.  Listened over and over in the middle of the night (plus the following days), through tears.

Pull yourself together. 

I'm sick of losing. 

What's Wrong

Early August 2025 I think.  Dealing with serious anxiety about relationships/impending hard conversations.  Yippee ki-yay.

Now, Not Yet

Early August, 2025. Whole album.  Sitting in the hospital for days on end.

Fear

Early December, 2025.  This song depicts the major struggle I've been dealing with in the background of this whole blog.  (And the fact that I just found out my dad's leukemia is probably back, while unrelated, still likely contributes to it's appeal of having it on repeat.)

"Standing back watching my mansion burn while I 

hold the gas can asking God if He started this fire." 

 

"What's the truth, what's a lie, help me God, help me Lord."